Frustration

I don't know if I have been so frustrated in my college career as I am now. My grades are crap. Ok, so I'm not failing anything, but they are almost all C averages. This is a very bad thing considering that my internship is depending on me to get at least a B average. Speaking of my internship, my Manager wants me to become more proactive in the things I do. He doesn't want me to wait around being told what to do. Yet, there are times when I have decided on what should be done only to find out that someone else is already working on that project. I have two jobs, yet I am broke. I am beyond broke, I'm in debt. I don't understand this. I have to go to class, work a 9 hour day, and come home to grilled cheese sandwich while my roommate has $17 Valentino's pizza. I don't want to eat Joe's pizza, I want to be able to buy my own without seeing all this red in my Quicken account. Even if I was in the black, i wouldn't know what to do with it. It isn't like I am in a relationship where I can go out and enjoy it. Oh well, I am sure it will get better. I know it could definitely get worse, so I will stop my complaining here.